An Adoptees Christmas

For me, being adopted has a big impact on Christmas. It makes Christmas harder due to the fact that everyone is so happy all the time and I may not be. The focus on family during the Christmas period is a major factor to how I feel and think during this time. I spent the majority of them time doing things with my adoptive family but wondering what I would be doing if things had been different? Do they celebrate Christ? If so what do they do? Would we be playing board games like I do with my adoptive family or do they do other things? So silly but it’s the little random things I do in life that make me wonder the most about them. I know it won’t be any time soon but one day I’d love to be able to wake up and say Merry Christmas to my birth mam and sister.

I think of them every single day, but Christmas time just makes me wish I was with them more. I want to know what traditions am I missing out on? Do they do anything special on a certain day?What’s the Christmas movie they always watch? What’s they’re favourite Christmas songs? What do they do for presents and who comes for Christmas dinner? It’s just little things like this that constantly go through my mind and that make me miss them so much more. It sounds so silly I know, but these are people who’s names I didn’t know until a while ago so I want to know every little detail about them and the way they live their lives.

If I could write my birth mam a Christmas card I would write; to mam
Merry Christmas from your daughter who loves you no matter what. I hope you have an amazing Christmas and I will be thinking of you like always.
Love you to the moon and back.
Your daughter,
Ludmila ♥️

I can’t wait for the day when I can find out personally all of these things that I have dreamt about for so long.

They are my heart and have always been. 

The day i meet them will be the best day of my life. 

Thanks for reading, 

LifeOfShivy

Always