Mother’s Day Letter To My Birth Mam

Mothers Day Letter To My Birth Mam 

Dear mam 

It’s mad to think that now one day I might be able to show you my blogs and hear your opinion. It’s Mother’s Day today and if I’m totally honest all I want to do is stay in bed all day listen to music and think about you. At the same time I don’t want to think because if I do I’ll over think. I don’t want to talk to anyone because I know I’ll lash out and as mean as that sounds its true. Today is not a good day. I’m hurting a lot. I miss you so god damn much, I just wish you knew. I want to know everything about you. Do you miss me? Do you remember me? Did you want to see me before I was taken? I want to know but these small facts don’t really matter many more because I know your alive I know I have a big sister. That’s more than I could have ever asked for. Thank you for choosing life for me, even if it wasn’t with you💓

I am so proud of you so so proud you got sober. You took Polina back and that made me so happy. I now know a lot of why I was put up for adoption and I understand. Yea i guess you could say I’m still kind of upet about it wly coming to terms with it. We just weren’t meant to be together at that time and you being an alcoholic was the universes shitty way of showing it. I do wish it could have been different but fingers crossed I’ll be in proper contact with you and My big sister soon. 

Love you to the moon and back Mam 💓 

Thanks for reading

-LifeOfShivy x