THE BEGINNING OF FOREVER PT 2

                                              THE BEGINNING OF FOREVER

My mother was an alcoholic.. 

I was taken from her after she gave birth to me due to her Parental Rights being terminated because..

She had come in, to give birth to me drunk..

I am unsure if she drank all through the pregnancy but I may find out some day as now I can ask my sister to find out for me. Wow, that's still absolutely crazy to be typing. My sister. 

I am not the biggest drinker but since finding out this i have completely found the idea of drinking not as appealing and not for me. I'm not against having a drink at all I just dislike the idea of having a dependency on alcohol to live life everyday. It breaks my heart to think she was in such a bad way that I was taken from her. 

My sister was put living with my grandmothers younger sister since the ago of six. When my sister was 13 my mother got custody back. In recent years she has come to her senses and rarely drinks.

This makes me extremely happy as she is sober and no longer depends on alcohol. It also makes me sad as i wish she had been able to do it when I was born. Don't get me wrong I love my family I just wonder constantly what life would have been like if I hadn't been put up for adoption..

My grandmother was also an alcoholic. She died of hepatitis many years ago at the age of 52..

It breaks mt heart thinking my family had to depend on alcohol to get through each day. I also got information about my aunt and 1st cousin which is amazing i never though I would be able to sit here and say I know about my extended family.

The only person not mentioned in the report was my dad, but my sister (STILL getting use to typing that) promises to get information about him off my mother during her next visit.

I am deliriously happy to know i have a big sister and even happier to know she want to get in contact.I am also delighted to know my mother is alive, that was one of my biggest fears when doing this and even before I always wondered. I cannot wait for the day i meet her and my big sister in person in Russia.

That's my adoption search story. I'm still coming to terms with a lot of this information myself and it will take a long time.

Thanks for reading, I really hope you enjoyed this blog.

Feedback as always is so appreciated 

-LifeOfShivy x